Learning

We are in a strange time right now...Kathy and I! We find ourselves grounded longer than we had expected. Honestly, I can feel the roots growing out of my feet.

Im learning lately, that I attribute growth with movement...and the harvest is needed in order to allow the plant more fruit space. You can't harvest, when you are carrying seed bags...you can't harvest when you are on the plow and you can't harvest the day after planting. There is a part of me that shakes inside at the idea of "this is where you will die" - I think it has always been a war inside of me...in my subconscience.

Im learning that if you are living with an internal war concerning the future, your present is... that much quicker, becoming your past....like forgotten memories. You can't trully and deeply love if your heart is set on "war." You can't find peace if your mind is ploting the next move or strategy. "Life" is not "life" if you do not learn the "Art" of love. War is for the ones who have decided that the end the existance of another and controling the spoils are worth more than love, honor and repect. The reason "War" is the lot of young men is simply because they are caught in the internal fight between the power to create and the control of killing. Wisdom is the lot of an old man because of his experience with the plow, the sowing, the weeding and the harvest. Older men become more gentle, the more they see clearly that destruction should be the last and final result for a resolution in matters. The resolve of a young man manifests in the reckless last resorts of his own hands but the resolve of the old manifest in the steady understanding of...himself, the season, the enemy, the family, the tasks at hand and the harvest.


until He splits the sky

God Bless

Jay

Dream:07/16/10

Scene one:
I am in the metro-plex with two brothers: Jeremie Harris and Scott McClelland. We were walking out of an apartment building, it was dark but the lights of the city had everything lit up and things were visible. Jeremie and Scott walked ahead of me to the vehicles we were about to drive. I looked to the right and saw two commercial jets coming in for landing ...very close to the ground. Somehow, in the dream I knew that the pilots communication had been lost with the local airport and he thought he was coming in to a landing zone. He tried to pull out of the decline and crashed on the outside of the loop around Dallas...the second airplane crashed on the inside that same loop. I think we were in Dallas. All three of us got into our different cars...all three cars were European models. Jeremie had a one seater red car the had a door on the front of the car (not an old model but a new fast one seater) - I had a small blue four door (like a "mini" - very compact) and Scott had a dark mustard yellow vw bus. We were in that order and I remember thinking these were euro-race cars. We left the apartments and drove into town...we saw the two planes but drove past them into down town

Scene 2:
On a communal property owned by Scott McClelland. Two houses visible(One in the front and one about 300 yards towards the back) We were staying in the front house with another couple. Scott and his family lived in the back house. The family we stayed with had a daughter who was demon possessed and the little girl was uncontrollably freaking out. After, what seemed to be all evening, the parents left the room and left Me and Kathy in the living with the girl. I pulled the girl up in front of me and screamed into her face at the demon to "release her and get out" - The demon left and the girl returned to a normal state.


If you have something, you see in this dream...comment and let us know. Thanks

Jay

Dedicated to "questions without answers"

"Life of Faith" - sometimes as a Christian, I find questions...I can't answer. Life Questions...about death, sickness, torment and pain.

I have some friends from Shreveport who have been walking through a season of pain and sorrow...I never hear defeat from them. This song came as a result of listening to their communications online as they struggle and the victory their lives represent to me.

Though now, we may suffer...Our Father is in control!

blessings,

Jay

What is around the BEND?!?

Family Update:

I am currently working for KJAS 107.3 FM and building a professional studio in town in a music shop, Kathy is still loosing weight by drinking our "Jesus Water" (LOL) and sewing clothes for children in the region, Jadyn just finished soccer and is learning to manage our mini rabbit farm, Jeremiah just finished Baseball and hit more homeruns in one season than I ever hit the ball (he did great) and Benjamin has been a great joy to our family...dirty diapers and all!

Changes Changes...Changes !!!!

It is amazing how we begin to hear the voice of the Lord and after hearing we move to obey, only to have the Lord "flip the switch" and change it all up!!!! Since our last post of "Scheduling Dates" we have been experienced many changes.

1. We have shut down any "music pursuits" until next year
2. I have taken a job as the manager of the area "Verizon Wireless" store
3. We are the proud parents of our new SON - "Benjamin Levi Sharp"
4. We have officially taken our house OFF the market
5. I(Jay) have felt a press and have seen a strategy for prayer for our local county

1. MUSIC - We fill at this time it would be counter productive to press out recordings when we are clear the the grace has not fully rested on this venture. We will continue to play and follow the leading of the Father, but until the end of the 1st quarter of 2010 we will not be scheduling anything new.

2. VZW - The Father has given me favor with the company already in less than 15 days being employed. Working in this capacity will not only be fun, it will also allow us the finances we need to maintain ourselves in this region. I can honestly say that I have never lived a life considering "seed time and harvest." My life has been more of an immature christian idealism that says "the Lord will provide and 'HE' will meet my needs" Although, those things are true...I totally see with clarity that if you want to see something grow you have to "PLANT."

3. Benjamin Levi Sharp - Beautiful 7 lbs 9 oz !!! Emotionally, we have been on tilt concerning this pregnancy and delivery. This baby boy brings with him the full promise of God's redemptive hand in our lives. No one wakes up in the morning and decides not to Trust the Father. It is a culmination of events, disappoints and broken expectations. After losing Abigail Grace in December of 2006 our "Christian" Lives have taken a crazy detour into the new reality of God's grace and hand. This has been an emotional year for us as we have once again come to the place where we have had no control over the outcome God has set into motion. There is much debate in the church about predestination and humanity's free will. I don't believe I know the answer but it lays somewhere in between the two and it is in the middle that we find our sanity and strength when the cards played don't benefit us. We have to remember who will ultimately redeem all things for HIS Good and Purposes. Yahweh is Just and Holy!!! Welcome to life...Benjamin...welcome to life!!!

4. We have decided to postpone the sale of our house. I believe there are a few more things I need to get done here first!!! Time to tighten up the Boot Straps...I hope Jasper County is Ready!!!

5. I have been seeing a strategy for prayer, for the first time. Specifically how to bring about countywide unity for change. I will post more details as it comes together.


PS - keep us in prayer! we love to hear from and hope to see you all in the future.

Blessings

Jay